Author Archive: Michelle Deere (Backhouse)

A nice routine but a wandering mind

88%. That’s the percentage of work days I’m xF. Most of that time is in blouse and skirt (aka 3B), so much cooler than combats or flightsuit. So that’s the update to “Update to going full-time Bigender”. If you’ve been following me via the Flickr link on the side of my page, you will have …

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CHANGE. Inevitable?

Is it change or is it growth? Or maybe discovery? But then again, maybe it’s finally accepting? Whatever you want to call it, was it inevitable? Over the years I’ve read many personal blogs. Of those that I connected with the most, I’ve seen many go through various stages of their lives and followed their …

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xF, xM and more firsts

xF – my new short way of writing expressing female. Same goes for xM, expressing male. It’s just more efficient or I’m lazy, lol. So, with the start of a new year, I had decided to see how it would be to xF at work. Of the 30 working days this year, I’ve xF for …

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Update to Going-Full time Bigender

So yes, it would appear it is possible. Of the last 40 working days, I’ve expressed female for 32 of them. I would leave and return home in male mode and change in my office.Those day I expressed male, I’d gotten to work and didn’t “feel like it”, to put on makeup and change. But …

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“Which side is stronger?”

That was a question I was asked by a Facebook friend after I had posted about this weeks course attendance; first three days expressing female and the last as male. Here is how the post and responses went. ORIGINAL POST – So today I only once caught myself walking in the direction of the wrong …

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Clothes, expression and thoughts

The following is based upon my experiences and may differ from others I’m sure. I don’t say “I dress as a woman” as that implies it’s about the cloths. I don’t “present as a woman” as that makes it sound like a show. I “express myself” and clothing is only one way of doing that. …

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Where to next?

2020 is almost behind us and destined for the history books, mostly for the wrong reasons. It was a very bad year for many reasons; in my home province of Nova Scotia we suffered a mass murder and the loss of a deployed RCAF helicopter and all its crew, and along with the rest of …

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Right off the high board into the deep end

I thought I was dipping my toes into the shallow end of the pool, but somehow I had managed to make it to the highest diving board and before I knew it, I’d jumped (or stumbled) off the edge right into the deep end. Since COVID-19 had put a damper on almost all activities during …

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Going Full-time bigender?

I’m usually an impulsive publisher, meaning I usually come up with my ideas in my head while doing some mundane task, then put fingers to keyboard later that day and hit publish right away. The following though has been sitting for over a week and had a couple going overs. Humm. The wording in the …

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Stupid Bigender…why did I choose this?

I didn’t. It chose me. Note: if I repeat something I’ve already mentioned in earlier posts, its to reinforce a point or for new readers to understand something. If I contradict something from earlier, it’s because I’ve learned more about myself since then. Also, I know everyone is different. Everyone has their own lives to …

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