Some reflections on this past year.
Well, it’s just shy of the one year anniversary of my first blog and I must say I believe I have written and read more than I ever expected. It has been a good year so far as self discovery, though it has been another year of much time spent away from the family.
Looking back, this year has passed quite quickly (it seems the older we get, the faster time passes). It doesn’t feel like a year since I decided to break the ice and expose myself to the world of blogging. I am very happy that I took this giant leap, as I feel I have been able to get things off my chest, things that I have never spoken to others about, reflecting on my experiences and views of crossdressing.
I feel better about my crossdressing, in viewing it as a hobby, understanding it and how it applies to my life. In years gone by, I may have been tempted to let crossdressing control more of my life, but now, possibly due to employment circumstance and/or a better understanding of it through all the readings of others experiences and thoughts, I have discovered I am one of those guys who likes to “crossact”. I’m not into underdressing, or just wearing feminine clothing. I participate in this hobby very infrequently but when I do I want to project a 100% woman. I really don’t know if I still can as I have not been out as Michelle in many years, but even at home, there is no half hearted attempt.
I have also learnt that there are so many of us out there (though not in Nova Scotia apparently) and the endless variations to this crossdressing phenomena. There are those who are comfortable, struggling, confused, stressed, bewildered by this need or want to dress in women’s clothing. And there are the associated degrees of acceptance (or not) by our wives and girlfriends.
I have found that I have had to limit myself to the number of blogs and other sites I visit (otherwise I would never get anything done …lol).
Not too long ago, I did finally make contact with a couple of other CD’ers one of whom lives not too far away (if 2hrs is not that far, well it is compared to a different province or country..lol) and I hope very much to be able to meet one day (maybe even when I’m home next time). The other, as it turns out, has similar interests in another hobby I have.
Despite some stressful times at work, I was actually feeling quite calm, relaxed, happy after having exchanged emails with these two great people, Thanks ladies.
Next year I am sure I will continue on this voyage of discovery and hope I have a few good ideas for blogs.
At this time I would like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Thanks for reading.