Why am I here?
Why do I have this identity on the internet?
Although it has been some time since my last blog (too busy, tired or just lazy..), I have still kept up with a good deal of internet reading. One post from Tina struck a cord with me. As I read her post Public or private, I realized I was going through the same thought process and my reasons for wanting to have this persona available online were changing.
Living in a rural setting but still possessing a desire to be seen and accepted as a woman, could have been the instigator for the initial big step of posting my pictures on the internet. I don’t recall why I started a yahoo email account, but that lead to some pics on 360 shortly before the move over to flickr. As time passed, I added more pictures and reveled in the comments I received. Even though these days I am not adding as many new pictures (as I don’t have the same number of chances to dress as in the past) or pics for the past, I still check every day to see how many may have added my pics to their favorites or added comments.
As for this blog, I, like Tina, had the initial idea that it was to be treated more like a diary, a place to record my personal thoughts, past experiences etc. And so it is, except that I am now not writing it for myself, but rather, as the count of readers increases, I feel I should be writing so as to attract more readers. As with my flickr account, it’s starting to become all about the numbers and who is reading. It is developing into a bit of an obsession. But what drives this? Oh no, not another answer I have to go in search of…lol.
So, this brings me back to the title, why am I here?
This is something I am going to ponder for the next little while……
- Posted in: The Early Years